You felt like a shadow

Always there but not at the same time

You were suppose to be everything for me

But u didn't...I wondered why?

Thought that you would change

But years went by,you remained the same.

You never did anything to be called 'FATHER'

You were a worker, not a father bringing money, never love.

Not enough money though..So u sucked at it too..

Well,u weren't good at that aswell.

It was all my mom struggling for a living with some cents.

I wish I could have got a father,not some shadow.

You didn't ask me how my day was

Or what am I doing

What u want to be?

Never.

Even if I said my problems,you never cared and brushed it away.

I felt bad and jealous while others have supportive loving fathers

What wrong did I do,that I never deserved a better one.

You had one job,and you failed at it

Atleast try to own it up,or correct it but u stayed and remained the same.

You piled up anger like mountain

And erupted like a volcano one day

All i could hear was screams and shatters of glass,just laying on the floor

As mom picked it up.

You don't know how to communicate

You were a unbothered guest,who came and ate.

I never recieved any validation or a pat on my head for all the achievements I got

As if I was some other kid and not yours..

Felt like a glass shattering like the years you never held together.

I wished I didn't have you.

I wish u could have helped me do what i wanted to.

I wish you could have bought more to the table

But I guess I'm too selfish

Yes,you had trauma that your parents silenced you.

But I believe that anyone can change over the years,if they try.

The day i was born,you weren't there at the hospital.

Now,you were there but absent at the same time.

Felt like i was with a ghost,just existing but unable to talk to

So,it meant that I was never yours.Just another burden.