I’ve been no contact with my uBPD mom since September. It’s actually no contact she initiated after she massively blew up on me (you can read more about that in my previous posts).

Since it’s the holidays, she sent me flowers with a message about her loving spirit being with me. She also tried the flower trick on Thanksgiving with another non-message focused on her.

I have her blocked on text and her emails are forwarded to a trusted friend and sent to auto delete from my own inbox. My friend has on an OOO message so one of her emails got bounced back to me. It was a link to a video from an influencer for estranged parents that don’t want to take accountability (Tania Khazaal).

The video was about how the only thing you can’t undo is regret from cutting people who love you out of your life. And how much “pain” the parent feels during estrangement. As a side note, prior to NC, my mom got her first tattoo with content about how much I’ll miss her when she’s gone. She truly believes she is the victim and I don’t appreciate her. When the reality is I did everything I could to try to make the relationship work before we ended up here. My grief is ongoing and painful.

I’m honestly just irritated because she has no accountability. I know I’m still relatively new to NC and this behavior is predictable. And even I expected it to happen. But it’s thrown me for a loop.

Just looking for support from others who understand.