(I don’t really mind your age as long as you’re 20 or above. You could be around my age or even older, as long as we’re compatible and share similar views on general, I don't mind it.. Also, I’m only looking for something long-term, so nothing like short-term, hook-ups or anything like that. I just wanted to say this beforehand so you don’t waste your time reading the whole post)

Well.. I’m not really sure how to start this.. I guess the best way is to be extremely honest and try to say as many of my flaws as I can so that I don’t have to keep explaining myself over and over while trying to find someone who likes me and is okay with my shortcomings.. like even just writing this post is already difficult and embarrassing for me since it’s the first time I’m getting these thoughts and feelings out of my head and sharing it even though I've spent considerable amount of time watching and thinking about..

I don't even know what to say like majority of the posts I’ve seen here are mostly about kinks, limits and stuff like that. And obviously I am here to find someone whom I'm compatible with kink wise as well but I want us to be compatible in terms of our personalities. I'm not sure if I’m the only one who feels this way but I’d definitely prefer someone who’s still kinda dominant outside of the 'kinky' dynamic as well, at least towards me. I feel like for most people this type of dynamic is only for certain times? but other times they somewhat expect their partner to fit into their gender roles?.. I mean.. that's the vibe I get from most of the posts I've read at least.. but I really enjoy the idea of having someone who is just dominant like leading? in terms of their personality as well.. I'm not saying that I should be meek all the time but we can have a relationship where we are equals but you are more equal if that makes any sense? lol.. I just.. don't know how to explain this better so I'll move on..

I think I'm trying to write as much as I can to avoid talking about myself and the things I’m into lol.. I feel like I look and act mostly 'normal' on the outside and around other people, but deep down, I’m quite submissive.. I also used to be a people pleaser when I was a kid, and obviously, I’ve gotten over that but the desire to give my all to someone special is still there.. like you know, I really want to give my all to someone: just make them happy, see them smile, cook for them, love them, shower them with affection.. just innocent, pure love (cringe ik).. like being a submissive isn't only sexual for me.. I honestly don’t know why but just making these for someone who deserves it would make me happy too. I’ve always tried to avoid giving that kind of love and care to someone because I was afraid of it but I feel like someone special here might enjoy that kind of devotion and reciprocate it in their own way..

I’m also more emotional and sensitive than most people I’ve met.. like I’m really good with emotions for some reason and I think that brings social anxiety.. so yeah, I’ve got somewhat of a social anxiety.. but I’m 'kindaa' good at masking it along with who I am deep down, so most people don’t see the real me or my anxiety. I mostly have 'progressive' values/beliefs.. I'm pretty much emotionally mature and self-aware.. I’d probably be considered an introvert, although I like doing things outside too, just not with big groups like I think I prefer more one-on-one kinds of deep interactions/relationships?.. Uhh.. I’ve been also called a 'dork' and nerd quite a lot :( But at the moment, I’d say I’m more of a failure than a nerd.. I’m doing a quite useless degree and plan on studying CS afterwards. I personally don't but I feel like some people, rightfully, might care about academic success or financial stability of their partner, so I'm not the best on those things at the moment and probably will not be for the next 3-4 years.. I do have goals and things I want to do but, to be completely honest, they will take some time..

For my hobbies, since I’m mostly an introvert, they are not that interesting I think.. I love trying new restaurants and bakeries from time to time.. I used to read a lot but these last couple of years I’ve only been reading about a book a month or less, so I’m not sure if I can call that a hobby anymore. I was really and still somewhat into philosophy, politics, psychology and a bit of literature.. But nowadays I mostly enjoy watching video essays, memes, cooking, baking, sometimes anime and video games, going on walks, studying.. I think I'd make a pretty good 'malewife' since I like cleaning as well :pp (joke)

Physically, I’m quite tall with an average body shape, maybe just a tiny bit muscular.. I think I look somewhat masculine though not overly so like your average Turkish guy. I don’t wear tight jeans or anything like that lol.. and I guess the only physical thing that might bother someone is that I have a lot of stretch marks from losing weight. I was overweight in the past and since it bothers some men when women have them, I feel like it could bother some women too.. Other than that, most things about me are pretty average I think?

Kink-wise.. I postponed writing this post for two months to avoid this part lmao.. Uhm... I think I'm into a lot of things and would be fine with many types of different dynamics as long as I'm the 'sub' because I'm not a switch at all.. like I could try to be a 'dom' for you but that would only be because I would want to make you happy :pp There are certain things I probably wouldn't do like not much comes to my mind right now except one thing I feel disgusted by is cuckold.. like I would never do that so that's my limit? Other than that I'm pretty much willing to try most things and to experiment. Should I say some of them? I don't know but I think I would enjoy being denied. It could be light denial or a kind where I'm mostly denied and kinda forced to only, I guess, pleasure you.. like I really like the idea of worshipping someone I love, both mentally and physically too.. Uhmm... I think a bit of pain.. maybe getting choked, spanked, slapped, abused.. a bit of humiliation/bullying??? I think I'd enjoy getting pegged as well. I thought I'd be able to write a lot more about my kinks but this is kinda 💀💀 Like maybe pet play? Being on my knees for you, getting collared.. is that even pet play? I'm not sure.. Uhmmm... like you can tell me your kinks in your message too and I'll say if there's anything I'm not into and yeah! Great idea, right? I like the affectionate, gentle type of domming? gentle but still dominant? but also like the one that is like harsher, strict so I'm fine with both.. lol.. This post is getting too long so I'm just going to stop.. but yeah.. I'm overthinking this soo much.. I know I've said a lot in this post but I don't expect you to fit everything I said perfectly like even if you agree with about 60% of it, I’d say we’d be pretty compatible.

Since I’ve made this post extremely detailed and long (sorry) and I’m probably not the best option out there, I’m not really that hopeful about getting any messages.. like I’ll share this post once every couple of months and check this account to see if I’ve got any messages, so if you’re able to read this post, it means I still haven't found someone.. I would be really happy if you could also introduce yourself like I did in this post, tell me about your 'normal/vanilla' side, and a bit about your kinky side and possibly what caught your attention in my post.. Feel free to ask questions if you have any as well!