i'm M23, i have never had a relationship that last longer then a week, and every time i feel like there is even just a subtle connection from a female my past trauma flashes in my head, it makes me push them away subconsciously trying to prevent them from getting hurt like i have been in the past, and some of my past trauma has been effecting me for over 7 years, with simple stuff like women saying "ew why would i ever want to go out with someone like you" to having a female think i have a very slight crush on her which caused her to bully me for years to try to stop us from being friends entirely, to having other guy's grope me while i have been sleeping. how do i rewire my brain to prevent me from sabotaging relationships within a week?