I just feel it to be to difficult to express my own emotions..Its too hard to be vulnerable..it feels like iam acting like a weak victim...I just don't feel comfortable in my own skin ...I just feel to be ashamed to be me ,and quickly ashamed and exhausted instantly even if I try to ...my people are always telling me about their life and whatever they are thinking ..but I can not do that I never to tell anyone anything..I just feel like I shouldn't talk about myself it's not worth it and starts doing stupid annoying stuff to fill up the silence...and ends up ruining my relationships because everyone thinks I just do stupid stuff and just fooling around with them ..I always feel alone and yearn to have someone to talk to but I want to be alone tooo...