Ever since my egg cracked a few days ago, all I can think about is transitioning and have really sudden and strong gender dysphoria. It’s like a flip switched. I hate my body hair, my “junk” just feels in the way, etc. Is this normal or is my OCD just going wild?
I also suddenly have zero attraction to women and have noticed I’m drawn to their makeup or saying things like, “She’s so pretty, I wish I had hips like those”. Was my attraction to women just gender envy the whole time? Did my acceptance bring this out?
Sorry for the rant I just can’t sleep and just have a feeling of discomfort/anxiety. I have a consult with a psychologist today so there’s that
It's very common to feel heightened gender dysphoria when you start questioning / when your egg cracks, yes. In many cases people have been feeling these things for years or decades, and developed coping mechanisms around them that often centre on not feeling those feelings. Dissociation is very common.
Questioning, and coming to terms with your own transness, are both things that force you to confront how you actually feel - and if you had been dissociating from those feelings before, as a coping mechanism, the experience can be jarring and overwhelming.
That being said, if you have OCD it is important that you work with a professional to try to unpick these things so I'm glad you're already there. I hope the consult goes well!
Thanks so much for the reply!❤️ I’ve been questioning over the past month but it wasn’t until I had that “holy crap I’m trans” moment recently that really turned the dial to 11.
I guess it makes perfect sense why this is happening now and I need to work this out with a psychologist.
This is normal. Why do you think trans people transition? Overwhelmingly, we have to.
Quite possibly. The other thing to remember is that stress absolutely nukes libido, and you're under a lot of stress in the immediate aftermath of your hatching, hun. Put a different way: if you'd just been in a car crash and were in excruciating pain, and the EMT who was tending to you was an absolute smoke show, you wouldn't be attracted to her then and there, would you?
Your brain is busy with other things right now. Give it time.
Quite possibly; our best research says that that sorta thing happens in about one of three trans folks.
Gurl, I've been there, you're good.
Thanks so much for the insight! I feel like things are finally becoming more clear. I was reading about MTF sexual orientation changes and didn’t realize how common it actually was.
I finally understand people who have to transition as I’ve become that girl. Even today at work all I can think about is this and I’ve had a strong pressure feeling in my chest like when you’re nervous/stressed.
Also, that article you shared was really well written, thanks. I’m glad I’m not alone💜
I'm glad you enjoyed the article; there are six more in the series!
Hey, thank your for sharing this. Could you mind to share the link of this research? I am interested in reading it. Thanks!
For which? I talked about a lot.
I'm in the same situation as you.
Started questioning two weeks ago now. Can't stop thinking about it and my dysphoria is HELL. I get dizzy, I feel weak, I freeze... I just want it to stop honestly. I wake up middle-sleep.
I'm afraid