I need yall to flame me for this bs ok so me and this girl were talking we got along very well we would play fortnight together (am not a fortnight guy but am a big time no life gamer with every other games and shes a big time gamer with ft so first time playing it was w her and she taught me the game) we would FaceTime sleep otp watching anime together we had so much in common and am a very freakyy guy and shes way more freakyy so it was amazing we matched each other i was a bit shy but yk how it is and thing is she asked me if id date her i didnt know what to say asked the bros they said say “idk would you” so i did and she said idk and at school whenever i get a drink she would always want to drink from it too and no waterfall full on lip contact BUT I FUMBLED HER MY FUH AHH FREIND were like yall a cute couple yall should date everytime she came to sit at my table with me which made things awkward and i got scared and said nahh in a joking way she stayed silent and stood up and moved after that we rarely talk i miss her so bad i wish i didnt crumble under pressure dammit i hate this crap wanna end myself fr(not literally) BUT UGH

Edit:forgot to add that was last year and she recently broke up with one of those type of guys that get with a girl for fun for a few days and manipulates her and cracks and dips so idk if i should go back