i cant smoke (regular cigarettes, no weed or whatever) anymore and that kinda just killed me. like they were the only effective escape i have had for years and now i just cant anymore, for reasons i prefer not to get into. im having a hard time believing that i will have to deal with these feelings by myself, i have close people but it never helped to talk or whatever, cigarettes were the only escape that worked and i just cant move on. its like losing a loved one but instead it's an inanimate object that kills you slowly. i really miss them.