this post is going to be triggering but im so lost and nobody with just psychosis or bipolar without ocd obsessions around it doesnt understand

i have bipolar and i get psychosis sometimes in hypomania and i got on meds to stave off the worse mood swings but i did start to have delusions again a bit ago and hallucinations and the hallucinations are still going on and im scared because i dont want it to get worse and my biggest fears have always been bipolar and schizophrenia and im not schizophrenic but i dont know how to cope with actually having pschotic illnesses