Today is my happiest birthday ever!!!!

It’s my (26M) birthday today and yeah… this one hit me.

I never had birthday celebrations nor a verbal wish of happy birthday as a kid, so I guess I learned early not to expect much. Still, it’s weird how almost all my relationships start around January / February / March… and somehow fade out or “pause” right before my birthday. Every time hahah. Same for work, like everytime we celebrate others but somehow mine is forgetten ... somehow.

I'm a very social person offline and online, but even on social media i don't try to make my birthday public, well just privacy but also i didn't want to impose on my friends to wish me birthday, I just wanted it to happen real for once or somebody really and genuinely remember

Today I wanted to break this, so I did something different, I took myself to a restaurant and ordered the nicest thing on the menu, then went to the store and bought myself a gift, and even wrote a note to myself: Happy birthday!

It actually felt good. Felt proud too.

Maybe that’s what looks like when I never really had birthdays to begin with.