You have been my kitty for a long time. 15 years, bud. I miss you so much, I’m devastated it all happened so quick, I wish it hadn’t happened today.

I knew it was coming, I’ve had days where I’d cry while you were still with me thinking about it. I felt nuts afterwards, but still scared for the day. I knew pets didn’t have a long time with us, not cats at least.

And so it happened, and now I am left without you and I feel like part of me is empty. I still have my janky tattoo of you from when I got it when I was 18 which I still think somehow perfectly represents you, the quirky kitty you were. A flamboyant man with a strut. Your once “murr-meow” that later turned into, what I called, a “smokers” meow. I loved you so much, you were with me through so much.

When my dad passed I could only think about reaching out for you. Grossly and accidentally using you as a tissue as my tears and snot would run down on you, but you didn’t mind. After all your name, Moter, was a play on for motor since your purrs were so loud. And as I’d frantically wipe off all that gross shit off you, you’d purr. That was only one of the many times you were there during the low points of my life, the constant during the times when things were falling apart.

I have to learn to be without you, any other cat I own will never be like you. Though I can learn to love them just as much as you- it’ll never BE you. I’ll forever hold you dear to me, I can’t wait to see you again one day. I hope to see you first if anything. You’re my sweetheart, it was a honour to be your mom.

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