I feel like I failed him really bad. That dog was my life he was the most lovely dog ive ever had he slept with me every night in my arms, he came sit on my lap every time i sat down.

I was really depressed because my parents divorced and lots of shit were happening so I was basically in bed all week, gosh. And he was in my mom's house (I was in my dads) but she was travelling so a girl was taking care of him.

I am just so mad I was lazy to go there that week because i was so fucking depressed. Gosh of course my baby had to die just on the week both me and my mom were away.

If only just went to see him gosh... I miss my baby so much I just wish I had seen him before he died, I was so fucking stupid for not going to see him that week I feel so guilty and awful. If maybe I was there i could have given first aid, I can do dog cpr and id probably have noticed he was acting weird way before the lady cause i knew him. (she did her best ofc)

I feel like he didnt get the full love he deserved and the love I always gave him on the week he should have gotten it the most. It breaks my heart. I wish i could have comforted him in his final moments

The bed is so empty since I dont have my boy snuggling into my arms, I dont have his smell and his thousand toys and blankets all over my room anymore. The dog i have left hates anyone that isnt my mom and most times I try to pet him he bites me, and I cry so much because Ik my boy would have loved to be pet.

I miss feeling loved, I miss him, I miss feeling his fur, the little bump on his nose, his smell

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  • Omg my heart 😔 im so incredibly sorry for your loss and I truly cant imagine what you must be going through..sending you so many hugs :( 💔

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  • I’m so sorry. Please don’t blame yourself. Depression is hard and you couldn’t foresee the future. He knew you loved him xxx

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