Hello, firstly I ask for please no judgement in here. Trust that I have that covered!

I started fostering dogs about 6/7 months after having to let go of my beautiful 18yo dog, my best friend and absolute spirit dog. The second foster has become a foster fail because I couldn't seem to let her go. Which was strange because I have a real kelpie bias and favouritism and she's a staffy x heeler x maybe kelpie x maybe collie x maybe JRT😂 I don't know exactly what stopped me from letting her go. I did get a bit ghosted by the rescue centre for a month and during that time maybe bonded too much but still.....it's been 5 months now. She's a beautiful dog, so friendly and settling in wonderfully. I just don't know why I did this to myself. I miss my old boy so much and feel like I'm comparing her unfairly to a dog I had for 14 years. And for she's a breed I've never owned sometimes she feels foreign or hard for me to bond to. Which fills me with guilt.

This is mostly a vent I feel too afraid to admit to anyone in my life. I should have waited. It was far too soon to open my heart to a new dog and I think deep down I knew that. I have complex mental health issues that cause mania at times and I feel I may have made this decision in a manic period due to some other personal issues at the time. Being hard on myself doesn't help though and I don't know what will.

Anyone??

Thank you xxx

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