55 days since I stopped cold turkey. The first 21 days were brutal, things felt doable from day 22-33.

From day 34-55 I have had intense cravings as my medication wears off around 17:30 - 18:30 every evening.

My sleep has only gotten worse, i stay hydrated, take vitamins, drink tea, meditate, have had therapy for 6 years, I still take care of myself and maintain hygiene.

I thought some switch would flip, I thought my drive would reappear, but everyday in the evening I grit my teeth and argue with myself about whether or not to use THC again.

I vaped for two years straight prior to the 55 day sober streak. Everyday I was either high in the evening or high all day.

Adhd is a curse, I tell myself if I am more strict I'll be good this time, I won't slip, but I know me. I am ranting and venting in hopes I will lose the grip on me right now, but it will be back again tomorrow.