feds have won. mentally i don't even know where i am even more. i have no qualify of life. i'm partially disabled and have completely unmanaged chronic pain which means i can't hold a job i can't trust anyone cause they've weaponized my mental and general health issues against me and have made me pray for death.
it can only get worse from here, i didn't even do anything wrong but because they hate me nothing is off the table, so the best i can do is not play their game or cooperate and my abusive family and unmanaged chronic pain in a weird way prepared me for this cruelty.
so i'm guessing since they know i won't be moved even if they frame me with prison forever (this is a prison already without walls) they will literally physical torture me next.
i have no one, not one friend or family that can lend me money so i can buy kratom to fix my chronic pain so i can work again so im also going to be homeless eventually.
and they won't let me kill myself so suicide isn't even a option unless i had a shotgun.
how to prepare for physical torture and also how to prepare once they frame me to go to jail to relieve my sexual assult and worse (getting raped)? for the rest of my life?
if you understand my situation do you even have $1 or more to spare so i can afford pain relief? if i am able to find enough donations to have a large enough pain relief supply (kratom) i may be able to work again.
i expect to honestly not have enough ever because i never had anyone in my corner even my family sold me to rot, i want to proven wrong that humanity isn't all bad but idk.
i think im losing my humanity. or my sanity?
Kratom is highly addictive. Personally I would recommend that you use different herbs like kave (as long as you don't have liver issues if you'd be okay), skullcap, lemon balm etc. kratom is not a good long-term solution because it can be very addictive and cause more problems in the long run. Sorry you're going through it. I can related in a lot of ways as my life was systematically ruined by a group of people and I'm also dealing with a lot of chronic health issues and pain, making hard for me to work.
I feel your pain. Different but still the same situation, feels like life in prison is the end result. I regret my fights against injustice, child support, banks, government that I believed set me on this road.Then releationship that was fake from start, her trieing to steal,all my stored weather, silver and crypto. The pi i hired that assisted her after giving 12k. I fled state to no avail, now country. Now I here they are trying to bring charges, when I have not harmed a hair on any of them . But finicialy gave and gave, while they had sex parties in my home. Despite having two homes was ran out of both.Filed multiple police reports , that all disappear.i never even get a call back, when I do they cant locate. Life seems hopeless, suicide sometimes seems like answer. They win for sure that way. Keep fighting , there is a way for the evil to not win. I wish I knew what it was as well. Also believe prison is torture or death for myself, Until that point have hope, believe in good. Try to change your energy field, project hope and change. I know this is hard alone. Even harder when those close assist or alienate you. But good has to win out some time, while alive things can always change. There has to be balance in this universe, all the evil has to have a equal opposing good force, be apart of that. Try!!!
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I was in a psychological prison for 13 years and when I started realizing the cycles, I was able to stay peeling back the illusions then I started getting followed, weird people coming to my hotel room door, intercepted phone calls and seeing black SUVs come around me all the time. I also have a chronic condition but I think it’s due to neurological torture. I sympathize with you because I feel like I’m so innocent and would never hurt a soul. They want to keep you in a low state of being so you can’t think for yourself. I had to come back home to family so I could be protected and gain my strength back.
I feel that. Literally because I could see things others can't see because I was able to see through the fake illusions of this world they decided to make an example out of me. They hate good people who shine a light on their evil deeds. In a similar situation myself. It's difficult I don't know but I keep going some how. some days idk what to do or how I keep going through it, so much pain too.
What are some things that you are able to see that others aren't?
I have a really strong intuition. I've always been able to know things from a young age. I could know that adults were lying. I am able to see through BS. I guess is what I mean like I never fell for any typical narratives or trusted blindly the authorities, like the majority of people do. I've just always had a different perspective of the world.
Omg you’re describing me too, I’ve always been different and never fit in, I always had a strong intuition too
Yes and I wasn't afraid to speak my mind. I was targeted since early elementary school. Everything they did to me from kindergarten to 4th grade really messed me up. I spent my whole life suffering and now I'm getting older and having a lot of chronic pain. It's rough.
I thought I was targeted for a few years but I think it’s been since I was really young too. I’m sorry you’ve been suffering your whole life, I’ve been through a lot too and the targeting that I found about a few months ago explains it. Sending prayers 🙏
Thank you 🙏 same to you 🫂 Take care.
What are the typical narratives that people fall for, and what are you able to see instead?
If you don't get it that then you don't get it I'm not trying to explain it to you #iykyk
I don't think you have a concrete example of what you are saying. Are you lying about being targeted?
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Sounds familiar. They tried all of these potential “outs” and situations on me as well—just one of many avenues they use, one thing after another, until you have nothing left. However, I had nothing to lose to begin with, and in my experience throughout life, it’s not a good idea to mess with someone who has nothing to lose. Caring became the enemy. They reduced everything to leveraging whatever you have against you. I’m down to my kid and my friends being used against me, along with replayed, manipulated, patched-together, pre-recorded, premeditated audio of myself. They’ll tell you anything to make you believe it. I think that until they get very close, they won’t put their fail-safes into action.
How are they framing you?
they've already done the discredit phase of dragging my name through the mud, apparently ima crazy person so when i tried to warn my family of illegal federal surveillance and psychological no touch torture they implement to fuck with victim's heads. no one believed me.
you can't expect the ignorant blind to believe even if it's your own family.
i already have nothing in my life i expect to die alone in pain.
i learned that humanity probably isn't anything real but a social construct. i wish i could believe in god, love, but it's a lie.
the feds knew what triggers me and still psychologically raped me with no vaseline. and in that time, i've been isolated completely. not one person is in my corner im all alone and i expect my story to end that way.
because when you piss off people who a crueler than you, smarter than you, more ruthless than you, more money than you can ever dream to have at your disposal, yea your pretty much fucked.
i was so powerless they felt comfortable telling me this i didn't know this because i just figured it out, they told me willingly.
Yea same boat but I never pissed off anyone since I rarely went out or spoke with people because of this 24/7 torture that started when I was 16. Only recently have i noticed that it came from the police when one night they were suddenly after me and shot heart stopping poison at me. How did they tell you this?
But how are they framing you to send you to jail? Like what are they doing?
Who did you piss off? And how?