hello reddit. i’m a 20 year old female and i’ve come to feel like i have been raised completely different than my half siblings. for a start i moved back with my dad due to my mom picking a guy and me getting out of a toxic relationship of three years. i share a room with two siblings which usually stay with my grandparents most of the times. i told my father it would be easier to keep the room clean if they would help out. “he is 6 he isn’t gonna clean.” i pointed out at that age he told me my things would end up in the garbage if i didn’t clean up my stuff and they did. he laughed and said yep. secondly i see everything just being handed to them. money and anything wanted. i scream inside because i had to work for every single thing i had even if it was literally working with my dad. i feel like they get it so much easier with him when he wasn’t even in my life half of it because of my siblings mother. she hated me and filled my dads head with lies about me. i watch everything from a distance and it’s like i was treated like total burden and like i couldn’t do anything right. i had to raise my siblings when i was around most of the times and i felt like i carried the bag always. i grew up fast and now i have no idea what i’m doing in life besides still trying to survive another day. nobody really worries about me until i’m a loser and something goes wrong for me it seems like. i don’t really like to talk about this particularly but i just wanted to know if anyone else felt the same or went through something similar. there were no substances or anything involved. it was just women for my dad and guys for my mom. i’m only with my dad because she told me her husband is more important and her work when she told me she’s help me get back on track (i had seizures and couldn’t drive for a year of my life at 19.) and that really ripped the bag. i’ll be 21 in june and i still have no idea what i’m doing.