Now I understand how thst might be interpreted and no it isn't that.

I am the middle sibling, for longer than I can remember I have been used as my mothers therapist. My mother has told me things no mother should tell her child. I, (partly) because of this dynamic, have some troubles as well.

I am an adult, 28. I have lately been going through one of the roughest periods in my life. My mother is aware of this and added to it. Saying things like "I damaged all of you by drinking and doing what I did, I should never have had children" (great stuff woman, thanks for telling me that and great way of looking at the situation).

I am leaving a lot out. But she then used me as a therapist asking what she should do and I had enough, so I told her to see a psych, she then heard how done I was and asked for a referral at her doctors. I also told her that she talking to me about these things is messed up.

Now things have gone a bit downhill from me since then (not really because of it). My contact with her has been limited. Then today we had a call. She told me that she has been trying adhd-medication (she doesn't have adhd). Because of the effect she is now sure she has adhd. Telling me not to tell anyone because the person who gave her a pill could get in trouble. I got furious. Basically said WTAF. Told her no more pills and said I highly doubt she has adhd. I asked her about the psych and apparently she was denied at the stately one. I then told her to get a private one instead.

I have so incredibly much to deal with for my own these days (depression, anxiety, critically low confidence), yet I have to deal with this in addition. I cannot tell my siblings any of this as they aren't as thick-skinned as me and it would break them.

I am so tired and wished I had a somewhat normal family hahahah