I took lsd when i was 13 ( way to young) didn’t know what I was getting myself into I was just curious. It was like 350ug dont really remember. I took 1 half first and took the other half while the first half was still in my mouth idk why I did that. I started tripping after a little hour it started getting intense pretty quickly, I was morphing in to places I was sitting in the whole time. Around the peak I morphed in to a bed, I was is a pitch black room in the top corner there was like a white kinda glowing 3d orb/ball moving very weirdly it was like it was breathing or something. I didn’t have control of anything and the words " what is this? Is this the end?" came out of my mouth then I guess the orb/ball answered with "no you took lsd Alex(my name) it will all be over soon, don’t worry" it was a very calming voice. I ripped out of the black room like I was in a painting I was really choked and still tripping balls. I always thought god was speaking to me through that white ball or something but I’m starting to think it was some kind of of entity 🤷🏼
You took a heroic dose of LSD at 13? That’s a rough initiation.
I’ve experienced the white ball while tripping on salvia. I smoked an 80x extract and reality dematerialized. I felt my body disintegrate, it felt like it unzipped. There was no personality left, just pure observation.
Everything went black very fast, but with full awareness, not like fainting. A few seconds later, a tiny pinprick of light broke the darkness. It grew and grew and then dust clouds started forming. Those dust clouds coalesced into stars, the stars formed galaxies. It was all swirling and spinning.
Then, I felt like reality was fighting its way back in. I kept slipping back into the trip and reality would rip me back out. I’ve described it like two film strips merging. Reality won out and I was back.
It was exhausting and changed me deeply. It took years to process, like water slowly drying. It triggered mental illness that I still deal with. You never come together back the same after an experience like that.
Have seen orbs as well, see my posts about it in the sub I made to discuss my orbs experience.
That's amazing because yes, I've met this before.
Yeah, one time when I was dying (literally), I melted out of my body and an orb exactly as you said, breathing, was just there in that expanded space.
It knew me, talked in my mind, absurdly calm voice. I was panicked about dying and each time I would say "but" this orb would blast me with a this wave of calm until I stopped. It kept saying "It's fine, relax" *hits me with a shockwave*
I've also seen the orb while awake, sober and not dying. It ejected me from my body again, this time because I was upset. I didn't realize being upset caused it.
I said this time to it "What are you doing? I need to go". It said "You're upset". I told it "no I'm fine". It then reached into my heart and I could feel it scanning my emotions and it says "You don't feel fine...?"
I calmed myself down and it scanned me again and then say "Okay" and it let me slowly float back into my body.
I've been trying to find out what it is my whole life. My first NDE when I was a child and I saw it sent me on a life path of knowing there's far more going on than just what I'm seeing.
How did the orb look for you? Was it plane white or with like stripes on it? I’ve never seen it again since never took lsd since aswel I was terrified lol
I'll add as well, that for me I was totally calm about the orb. The dying was what was emotional to me.
I can't help but wonder if you were just overwhelmed by the acid. 350ug is actually quite a lot.
Yes it was the acid that made me overwhelmed you said you melted out your body and this happened like almost 10 times to me during my trip I don’t remember what I saw but for example I would go sit on a chair and every part of the chair woud like connect to me until I was in that chair. It was like I was a puzzle piece and everything was something that fitted perfectly in me very weird feeling.
Yeah, I've had the same experience. On LSD, I was on a couch started to get confused about if I was the couch or me.
It's like, LSD lets you see I think without your brain.
It's almost like our brain is somehow limiting us but consciousness isn't really like that. It's much weirder.
I honestly don't remember it super well now and I've never in the moment written anything down so I don't have much to go off.
All I could say it was made of out consciousness, which apparently is a material. Also I would say blueish white. No stripes. But it had like cloudy waves across it and around it. Like it was alive.