I have been trying to copy the characters from the kids books as starter, but now that I am looking at it it’s not consistent I don’t know why the characters are not being the same and it’s confusing because in the book there isn’t a guide on how to do it so I have been make it the character up as I write . It’s not really the best but I don’t know how to write… I used my iPad but the handwriting felt even worse…
It's never too late to pick it up. You've got the right kind of notebook already. What pen do you use? Try a regular HB/2B pencil.
You probably need to work more on the basic strokes, especially the straight Press (乀) and the long Horizontal. Feel free to share your progress here. And after the basics you could use a copybook (see community collection) for individual characters.
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